I think this is a good and wonderful development! I do not have access to conscious memories about what damaged and hurt me, and I would really like to have them, but they are blocked and shut away somewhere deep within.

When tears come, mourning is possible, and in my case that would mean that recovery could begin.

That's why I am glad to read what you wrote. Mourning feels very similar to actual suffering, but I think there is a very important difference: Mourning is like a completion of the right and natural emotional response to whatever happened. It is coming after or long after the original incident, but it is like cleaning up the rests. The greek word of katharsis indicates that. Something like a purification of a wound. And when it's clean, it can begin to heal without new inflammations.

So I think this is something you can really be proud of and happy with!

bluenarciss