anxietygirl,

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I have two sons and a daughter. I dread to think how I would cope in your situation.

My dad committed suicide some time ago now, and this experience has helped me to understand a little of the horrors of someone dealing with this and the helplessness you feel.

The strength and energy of others is all around you - use it. I would.

Love, strength, energy, and best wishes to you at this sad time.