I am not sure what happened to me today. I was doing ok just a few hrs ago. And now i just feel really down and tearyeyed. Is this part of the cyclothymia ? I am just beginning to try to understand this . And I dont know why but I feel scared now . I think I am scared because I may never understand it , why I feel what I do when I do.And If I will ever get a handle on it. I told my t last week that I think my body is getting used to the lamictal and that I dont feel the good effects from it. He had me rate different things on how I think its working and why I dont think it is. I feel like there is supposed to be a friggin right or wrong answer and I know there isnt but I feel like I am being interrogated in a way about this. I'm sorry I know I am way off base, Its just that I almost feel ike one of these days during one of these questioning periods, I am gonna burst and lose it in there. That is not me, that is not who I am but yet this is part of me now . I cant fake it , I cant supress it , I have to deal with it. And I am not sure how. I am really lost here. And I am rambling arent I? I 'm so sorry.
Thanks Angie and Cateye for your replies. I appreciate your concern and support. Just wish I could understand myself better is all.

Beth