pretty typical "OMGWTF AM I GAY?" post. Please bear with me, if you can.

So I'm a girl and I've always been a tomboy. Never to an extreme, or anything, but I'd say I'm equally masculine and feminine in character traits (versus most of the girls I know, who are more into fashion, looking nice, etc.)

I thought I was bi for a while. Like homoerotic more than hetero-erotic stuff, for the most part. Weirdly, I enjoy male homosexual stuff more than lesbian--but I've never had any real sexual experiences, so I can't say for sure. This just comes from the wonderful information mine that is the Internet. Ahem.

My parents found out about what I thought and flipped a royal poop pancake. It was bad. I've since convinced them I was just confused, I AM straight, thanks much, it was just a stupid phase brought on by depression. Lies. I AM confused, but mostly because girls can be Oh. SO. sexy.

Is there a litmus test for this kind of thing? Are there certain things that you can point to and say, "Yup, you're bi," or "Nope, you just admire other women, you're basically normal"? I'm pretty sure I'm gonna grow up, get married, have a husband and kids and a white picket fence... but I'm questioning so much right now. And it hurts. A lot. I can't talk to ANYONE about this, not even one of my best friends who IS gay. >.<

Soooo frustrating. Thanks for your time, all.