I know I don't understand what it's like to lose something ... especially something like complete mobility which I never have... but it makes me realize that some people have been through far worse than I have or ever will.

But it doesn't make it hurt any less.

I'm wondering if my pdoc has lost his mind when he wants to try an experiment with my antidepressants, and take me off them for part of the summer so I can experience the "real me" and see if I can function.

That actually scares me a lot. It's been easier to function in my life with all of my issues with them. We'll see I guess?

I do admire people who try to understand what its like to have a disability or whatever... but can it really be done? I'm not entirely sure.

Just thinking out loud.

Today, I am upset because I have a bunch of bruises on my knees, ankles and feet and I don't know where they came from. I also can only feel down to my ankles (it gets patchy past my knees though) ... so who even knows how long I've been beating myself up.