I can imagine how hard seeing a new T must be for you! How nice that she called you to reassure you and help you feel comfortable
This is a very big step for you and I think that shows in how you feel physically sick from the anxiety about it. I am just reading this or I would have suggested maybe you could take something to calm your stomach so you could give yourself the gift of meeting this new T who sounds very understanding.
Maybe if this feeling sick keeps happening, you and T could talk about that and she could help you with that first.
How did it go, silenthill?