Good question. I use to think of myself as a victim....but as I work through my issues and come to understand that no ones' life is "perfect", that everyone has at least one scar from childhood..yes perhaps I had a lot of "crap" in my life, perhaps more so than some and perhaps less so than some...I've come to look at it as something I wish to work through and detach from...thats not to say I will forget it, but its the judgements my mind makes on it that causes me the most torture, when I look at it like an observer I see just me....its just the way my life was....its part of who I become today.....someone that had certainly strenghts and weaknesses and used them often without knowing as I grew up...I think if we all look back we're see there are animal instints in us that got us through one way or another...we've all got them...so I surivied because thats what we do as humans, mostly...