i think you thinking very clearly.  i'm not sure what's going on with your hubby but this has got to hurt you a lot and definitely it's not helping your relationship. if it were me i'd seek out a therapist or counselor-marital-to help guide you thru this difficult time. you need support and also your hubby needs help, i believe, but i'm not sure based on what u posted if he would agree. have you asked him if you all could seek help together to mend the relationship?
oops...and welcome to pc!!!
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