I am sorry to hear about your pain wisewoman. Those feelings and thoughts overtake you and it hurts, I know! Just stop and think about all the good you have. Think about the beautiful flowers blooming right now. Think of all the positive things. I know that it is tough to think positive, when everything seems so negative. It can be done though. I know it can. One step at a time and you can make it.
My thoughts are with you and I will try and push some positive energy your way. ((((((((((((((((wisewoman))))))))))))))