These are only FOUR of the examples of inner feelings I had before I was properly diagnosed 3 years ago. After 30+ years of suffering with no answers to my behaviors, I finally found someone who knew what they were doing!! lol............I tried several types of meds. but to no avail, they didn't do the trick. I changed doctors two years ago, and I am now on the cocktail of Luvox(depression) and Lamictal(mania). I tell all that it's the difference b'tween night and day for me. I can finally get thru the day w/o an episodic mode. I don't say I have all good days, as Lord knows you never know who you're going to be from one day to the next. That's how this disorder manifests itself. It'll drive you crazy sometimes!! My roller coaster ride isn't GONE, but it's slowed down enough for me to get off once in a blue moon!!
TAKE YOUR MEDS. IT'S THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO FOR YOURSELF!!!!!