Hi pach,yes there are counseling services available to the department which after the first one,we did meet with 2 counselors.But after time,things began to build up inside me,such as a house fire the tragically ended up in the loss of the resident.At the time i thought i was fine with it,but over time it began building and add problems with my girlfriend at the time who did not understand and she would not listen nor offer support.We became distant from one another because of that and she accused me of pushing her away.We began to fight constantly,i began having fits of extreme anger,throwing and kicking things.I did not physically threaten or harm her.She got to the point she could not take it,even though i only had the fits of anger when she was at my house,in other words she provoked them,but blamed it on me.She then went as far to obtain my cell phone call and text message records,began calling my friends and harrassing them at all hours of the night.She also got into and deleted my My Space account.She also accused me of being into swinging,then threatened to call the police on me because it was illegal to do that.I never have,nor ever will participate in any such activities.I went to the Magistrate;s Office to find out my options on what action i could take.Now her Daughter read her journal 2 days ago and sent me an email accusing me of verbally and physically abusing her Mother and threatened to tell her Mom's Brother on me who in no uncertain terms would wreck my world.I don't even feel safe going out of my own home for fear of her brother being out there waiting for me somewhere.I called my ex girlfriend and told her everything her daughter said to me.The meds i am taking were helping,but last night i had an anexity attack,first one in about 4 days.I wonder if this will ever end,and hope no one has to go through what i am now.