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Originally Posted by jersey_joe_in_fl
I watch gay porn everyweek if not even almost every other day. I prefer it over being with another male as myself. I enjoy masturbating watching very masculine men engaging in sexual activity with each other. I really would prefer to be in a relationship with a man but I have bipolar disorder and a personality disorder and feel that no man would put up with me. So the porn relieves me from feeling that my mental illness will interfere with me having a real good sexual experience. But then I feel lonely afterwards and empty. Am I in a trap?
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There is nothing wrong with watching gay porn to take off the edge. I'm a girl and I watch it any time I can. But do please understand this, people like you for your strengths but
love you for your
faults. Cliche, yes, but it's true.
I am a manic depressive who is socially akward and a cutter. I'm loud and envious and I obsess about every little thing. I constantly have panic attacks and I'm alittle weird. But I have a boyfriend who positively worships me! Why? I'm not sure, maybe he's the 'crazy' one, but there's someone for everyone. Don't let anything slow you down, even a bi-polar disorder.
People are MADE to lean on each other and depend on each other. Don't expect the road to finding this person to be easy, but don't give up.