Sky_ interesting distinction between moral and natural evil. I guess I've been limiting my thoughts to the moral evil. You comments made me think of acts of commission and acts of omission. Sometime for me it seems like it is harder to deal with something that you should have done, but simply didn't. Why...I have not idea, maybe it is just what things immediately surfaced when I read your comments.

madisgram...I think you are right, I have a lot of tapes that just need to be thrown away. Its amazing how when you are not "in the grips" of things you can see where your thinking was flawed. But then when you are in the middle of the muck, to old tapes jump right back out of the trash and in your head.

Safron....I definitely get what you were saying here, especially with regard to service. I think what I was trying to say was more about what I feel sometimes when I recognize that had done something because I wanted another persons attention, wanted them to like me, wanted them to care/love me. For example once my T wrote me a little note that simply said. "Ask H to show interest in things you are interested in." I couldn't do it. Asking someone to show interest in me or the things I like to do seems prideful or self-centered. I don't know like a child saying, "Mommy, Mommy WATCH ME!" What I was trying to say is...it seems like wanting others to care or to be interested or to think you are important enough to pay attention to , is not such a bad thing. In fact, it might even be in our nature to seek this type of connection with others. But some how for me, or when it applys to ME, it wrong some how (prideful, self-centered, not about serving others).

Maybe this is just like madisgram said... an old tape that needs to be thrown out. But its connected to something deep-a belief that if I find myself WANTING, then something is wrong.