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It was good to share that; it's funny how we can get a sense of each other just through our messages. I often think it's easier than being face to face, yes I definitely feel that.

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yes, I really sometimes feel that...

And, conditioning is so strong isn't it...I didn't realise until recently, and especially after this morning's therapy session, how much conditioning I have--negatively-around food and eating...

Last nights discussion on here really helped safely open this up for me, because it is scary stuff...frightening...

When I was a teenager I used to not eat a lot of my school packed lunch, and used to hide bits of it under my bed and in the front room under stuff....really strange behaviour...I wasn't fully conscious of what I was doing I don't think.
I was crying out for help, I sense, but of course my dad flipped his lid as it were when he found out...was very angry with me for wasting food.
And I became very frightened.

What I explored in therapy this morning was my deep pain of longing, emotional hunger for love, admiration, care.....

sorrel