((((((((((((KB)))))))))))))) I hope you're doing OK despite this incredibly painful situation. I've had a couple of situations with T resulting from negative transference lately and I can tell you from experience how much it hurts. I too try to push T away when that happens but he keeps trying to engage me despite my efforts. I haven't canceled sessions or taken a break like you have but I have been tempted to. So I know where you are coming from.

I agree with the other comments here. I would encourage you to send the $200 you agreed to and to set up at least one more meeting with her to discuss the amount you owe her and whether you can continue working with her.

Let us know what you decide