I don't know what is going on for your right now, but I do know how painful it is to be afraid of not being accepted or wanted. I have been very quick often to conclude that I was being rejected, because I have been rejected so many times. But most of the time I might have been okay just to give it a little more time and wait and see. I hope I'm not way out in left field here, or if I am, that you will forgive me. Just thinking about the time that you came into one of my chats and asked a question, and I wasn't able to answer because I was already answering something else, and I think you left before I could explain that. I'd like a chance to get to know you better. I'm shy too, and that can make it hard to connect.