((((((((((((((((((((((((silversparrow)))))))))))))))))))))

I left a message very similar to what you wrote on T's voicemail a few weeks ago.

When he called back, he very clearly, and kind of sternly (not like him!) told me to... SLOW DOWN. He kept coming back to that. SLOW. DOWN. Breathe. Breathe in, and breathe out. And then do it again.

It's so scary to get caught in that spiraly feeling of madness. And it's hard to find out way out alone....

SO. Can you slow yourself down for a minute? Can you get grounded? Sometimes I name 5 things I hear, 5 things I see, 5 things I can touch and feel, etc. Sometimes I run cool water over my hands, or take a drink of cool water and feel how cold it is on my lips and in my throat. Sometimes I breathe slowly and count each breath. Sometimes I go outside and look at the sky and the trees and it helps me get some perspective.

Is there some one you can call that can help you? A friend? Do you have a T? I know it's hard and scary to reach out, but sometimes we just have to. That is why we are here - to help each other. Let someone help you.

It doesn't feel like it, but this will pass. My T always tells me that "feelings aren't emergencies, they are information". I sometimes think of big feelings as energy running through my body and I know that the energy will pass eventually.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((silversparrow)))))))))))))))))))))))) I don't know if any of this helps, but I wanted you to know that I heard you....

Sending many many many