I've been with my husband for 18 years, the last has been spent separated. Fifteen years of marriage - and have two young daughters (ages 4 and 6). We share custody 50/50 and continue to get along pretty well.

Where in the heck did my husband go?? We did vow til death do us part. In sickness and in health. Since I had my 4 year old, things have been rocky. But, that doesn't mean I lose my commitment and devotion to him. No, I just wanted to work at it. He didn't. He'd had enough of my never-ending dramatic life. I just can't blame him for that. If I could escape myself, I would too! I take the blame. With all of my issues: major depression, epilepsy, TBI, and childhood drama (molestation, frequently ignored by loved ones, family stuff) - I presume that he now kicks himself for not seeing it sooner and backing off .

Anyway ~ I just worry that I will always be alone and never have that connection I thought I once had. Do feelings like these last a long time? It is misery

Shez