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jrae · Mar 12, 2009, 01:15 AM

thanks everyone for your replies. i'm back at home now. the interstate was closed for almost 36 hours, so i couldn't go anywhere. my cats gave me the best welcome back of everyone.

my younger sister and her boyfriend are at the house for spring break. i hate being around her. she treats me like i'm stupid, and it f-ing pisses me off... so i went out in the -10degreeF weather and sat with my cats for almost an hour. then worked in the basement to try to calm me down. now i'm so f-ing worked up that i don't even want to go to sleep tonight. and my mom went thru my stuff when i was gone... this whole trip was just a f-ing bad idea. is that a sign; i mean, should i not go?

and i know something's not right with me... it started yesterday. i didn't eat much, didn't drink much, and even though i was tired, didn't sleep much either. and the drive home today (3 hours) was unusually quiet for me. i don't know what's going on with me. i'm not on meds, so it's not that. i just honestly wish i didn't have to go thru this ****. you know, to be 'normal' or even somewhat me again seems impossible now...