Thanks, Turquoisesea.

I just got back from the drs. My ECG scan came back pretty good blood tests, we don't know yet. Won't know until Tuesday. I got the cuts looked at on Tuesday and they couldn't do any stitches or anything, but dressed it. I got it checked again at the drs and there was loads of icky, smelly fluid. So.. I have to go back in next Monday to get it looked at again because it's quite hot to the touch and could have an infection. Blah.

I haven't been able to speak to Kat.. She's not being helpful at the moment. She didn't bother emailing me back to say thanks for letting her know whyy I hadn't been in, but she was able to email me with yet another assignment. Luckily, I've already got the plans for this assignment. It's just a matter of putting them together.

Working with animals will light my life up even more. Animals are the main thing that kept me going in my adoptive "home". I had a cat and a dog. Their fur was a great comfort, along with a great blanket to cry on! :P

Just wish I had my pets now, you know? I know I'm going to be getting Mum's parrot, Charlie. He's a bit of a b*gger though, but I guess I'm just scared Mum's not got much left.. I'm terrified. I barely know her. She's only 48 and she's dying..

Sigh. I just told Connor that I cut. He asked why I didn't tell him before about it and that we could have talked about it. I told him that's the thing, I didn't want to talk about it.. I can't talk about why I did it.. Especially not to him, because i'll cry and i hate him seeing me in so much pain, because it upsets him too..

The gig went ok I guess.. It was lots of fun and I think I did pretty well, but I'm disappointed because I think at the end of could it be magic, which was my best song, I went about a semitone out of tune. Dammit!

It was a pretty good gig, though, lots of laughs and dancing on my part. Just wish I felt that ok all the time. I was so, so conscious of the fact that I was laughing and smiling, forcing the smile for all the people sat in the crowd watching me. Hm. I have to finish my new song..