I TOTALLY believe hormones played a major role in my getting married. Some kind of nesting instinct kicked in or something. LOL

Here is something interesting and related to the concept of internal evil. I recently started reading a book titled Mind of its own by John Lemoncelli. I've only just started the book, but immediately I thought of this thread. He refers to the effects of child abuse as a parasite. I like this metaphor, I can comprehend it. A one point he mentions about "Childern imagine that there is a source of evil within themselves, and continually try to compensate for this evil.". That is totally me. I also think that the way God was presented to me as a child really fed this parasite, instead of giving me a defense or immunity against it. I think I heard a lot about evil and the importance of doing good, and how God is watching.... And not enough about the Divine grace concept.