i'm curious what part of that did you find so amusing? perhaps it's easier to laugh at someone else than to look at what's bothering you. or better yet, why did you post at all if your intent is to not wish a reply?
i'm not trying to bust you but query a sincere question to your inappropriate reply, imho.

Deep Blue Sea - DO you feel as though change is in your life (for the better is hopeless) - is that why you laugh at your self or the mere thought of some thing better?