Lifelesstraveled,

I'm really proud of you for being able to finally talk to your therapist about what was bothering you. I can understand so well that strong urge to avoid connection with others. Maybe you feel like nobody really cares anyway. Or that they just would not understand. Plus, if you've been hurt alot by others in life, you probably have strong emotional armor on to protect yourself from getting hurt again. I'm sure your t would like to see you reach out and bond with others. But you don't have to jump right into it. Just focus on taking little steps.

Also, please know that we on the board care about you. We are not bored with this thread. Please continue posting if it helps, and we'll keep on reading.