My mother isnt that bad, everytime I turn around shes asking for money to help her out. Before she was demanding $50. out of each of my checks. I help her and get paid through the state and she always tells me its her money I should give her something out of it. She is like a millstone around my neck I get angered easily by her my anxiety is at a level that all I do is take muscle relaxers to be able to slelep some nights. I took a whole week off from being around her. At night at least the last several nights I have a whirring sound in my head and I cant sleep without a muscle relaxer. For the first time in a few days its not as bad and I can go to sleep without a relaxer. She throws tantrums like a 10 year old stomps her feet flails her arms and screams. ON 2 different occassions she hit me in the jaw really hard because I said no to her and I am 56 years old and I have a right to say no. It has made me want to kill her at times and I am depressed dont want to be around her I sleep for 10-12 hours a night. I wake up with a headache. I would rather see go into a home or assisted living place so I can have a life which I dont have now. Is it wrong of me to think this? I have 4 brothers and 1 sister and most live in other states to be away from her. I complained to my oldest brother who lives in Colorado about my mom. He said well I took care of her for the first 20 years its your turn now. I dont want a turn I see what she has done to my family she has run everyone away from her and the ones who live in the state dont communicate with her. I am very tired I want outtttttttttttt.