I went to the doctor today, and she diagnosed me as ADHD. Which I figured. Since it was pointed out to me, I've done a lot of research and it was just so clear to me, my husband, my parents, friends, & coworkers. Basically everyone I talked about it with noticed (although they never said a word before now). So anyway, the doctor started me on Adderall XR 15 mg and told me that was mid level for a first time on meds, but she said my symptoms made her want to start me there but she will probably adjust it next month. I'm feeling relieved to know that I'm finally gonna have something closer to normality than my current mindset. I don't like the idea of taking meds, I've always took meds as a last resort for anything, but if it will help, I'm willing to try. I still feel emotional though, I don't feel like I know myself. I always thought of myself as the unique one, that my differences made me stand out, but it's also been a lonely journey. My husband has been great though, super supportive, and he generally pushes me when I start flaking out, even though it annoys me at the time. But my mom shocked me. When I called her and told her the doctor agreed with us, she told me it was a joke of a disorder and that all the meds would do is hurt me. But I'm so hurt that she would belittle me about something that is really important to me! We've been through alot of stuff together (we both were in bad car accidents a year apart and both of us were hospitalized for a while and took turns taking care of each other). She told me that the doctor offered to put my little brother on meds when we were little and she didn't then because she thought it was stupid then. She told me to grow up and just get myself together. I'm so frustrated!!!!!!