I had a whole entire reply here

and lost it.... i hate when that happens...
Sannah....to keep it brief, all of those feelings are coming from how stupid I was to NOT listen to logic. instead I decided to chase ghosts (untouchable hopes, dreams and plans). Never again. A stupid mistake I will never make again.
Peaches. You're right. I do feel like no one really cares. No one ever has. So why bother?
Chaotic, it's sooo hard for me to let others support me. I hate admitting that i need help, I hate asking for it and accepting it, which is another reason why i have been contemplating just quitting therapy, but this is a topic that should be reserved for another thread.

thanks guys