((((((((((dan))))))))))

Depression is an illness. There are no people who "should" be more or less depressed than others -- if you have it, you can't be happy even if you're in the best circumstances. I've been in the same boat -- amazing school, family and friends, and I felt so worthless and undeserving of all of it. Don't be too hard on yourself, it can be treated, it just takes time.