Emotionally, I'm feeling so much better. I think that's got a lot to do with my amazing counsellor, who has given me the courage to get a lot of my personal issues sorted out and helped me put my life in perspective.

Physically, I'm EXHAUSTED. I still have no energy or appetite. I realized the other day that I have a limit, like when you're using a vacuum cleaner and you pull it too far, so it unplugs from the wall. I can't work as hard, quickly, or as much as I used to. The end result is the depression sending me to bed for at least 15 hours before I have the energy to get up and try again. And when the physical exhaustion gets the better of me, I find it harder to fight off the depressive thoughts, and I get terrified that I'm never going to be able to crawl out of the hole again. The doctor and my counsellor have said it'll be a slow recovery but... UGH! I hate it that my mind is doing better and my body won't catch up.

I'm tired of this!!!

Sorry, just wanted to vent...