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turquoisesea · Mar 12, 2009, 09:06 PM

*hugs*

I'm glad you got the cut looked at. sorry it's so icky too x.x but, they'll take care of it for you/with you.

I'm also glad the gig went ok. Everyone plays or sings out of tune every once in a while - it's so dependent on so many things esp for a singer. Weather, humidity, NERVES (although somehow we're supposed to be superhuman and not be affected )... I wouldn't worry about it too much, because it DOES happen.
I hate fake smiles too - pretending to be ok when I'm not. I guess all our hopes are to get better so that we don't have to fake it anymore.

sorrry about your mom... sorry that you haven't a pet right now, they rae so special...

About Connor...
first I'm really glad that he's understanding and willing to talk about it.
second, I understand your hesitancy to talk about it with him. With my bf I am very VERY open about what's going on, and although it hurts me to see him hurt because of what I did, the way I see it is we share everything, and that it is more important to be open than to walk on eggshells. Although the si is a part of me I hate, it IS a part of where I am now, and I NEVER want to hide myself in front of him. I'm not saying that's how you have to or should be, but keep in mind that there is a balance to keep and that openness is important. Also... I think it's ok not to want to talk about it, or why. Maybe, that's something you can tell him, explain to him that it's so hard to talk about it, that for now you'd rather spend the time with HIM, and make that time HIM and not about the SI. (we also have to be careful that the relationship does not become only about our problems ) AAAHH BALANCING ACT... ROFL .
Realy though, through openness and caring on both sides, you should be ok. And it looks like you both care for eachother. So that's great

sending many hugs,
~turquoisesea