My depression flared up so bad I ended up in the hospital. I wasn't eating and slept 20 hours a day. I just felt so empty and numb. I was really scared to go to the hospital but nothing else was working. I have a therapist and a pdoc but nothing they did was helping.
I lost my mind. I started crying and couldn't stop and then didn't recognize my sister. I felt so awful I told my sister to take me to the hospital. I haven't been in the hospital since I was 17. It was a horrible place then.
This time was better. Everyone was so nice to me and the doctor there started me on a different antidepressant and meds to stop the voices I was hearing. I was there a week. I felt somewhat better at the end of the week now I feel much better and wish I'd went sooner. I just felt so ashamed of being so sick and hopeless.
I thought I would post this because I want people to know you can get better. I get up now and I eat. I feel happier and lighter. It's not a quick fix but you can get better .
Hang in there.

Kayti