You're not a loser or unloveable or a piece of ****. You belong in this world and you deserve to be happy. Maybe the reason your so called friend was nasty to you is maybe shes jealous of how happy you were and how good your life was compared to hers. I can understand how you are feeling down because of your job loss but its not the end of the world im sure you will find something soon. You just need to keep your chim up and not let this horrible beast get the better of you, xou have beaten it once before and you can certainly do it again. I really hope things start to look up for you soon. I kno how you@re feeling with the job loss my bf was fired and a few days ago we were evicted from our house. Please dont insult yourself im sure you have a beautiful soul and are a very kind and loving person. *hugs*