I'm not terribly unintegrated like someone with DID. I have a bunch of ego states and some are more prominent (in the foreground) than others. My first little girl showed herself in a dream right before my second therapy appointment. I told T and he told me she was an ego state--I'd never heard of any of that. We did trauma work early in therapy on healing some of the "younger me" ego states. As they become more healed, they are not as prominent. But I wouldn't use the word "integrate" for my world. I have a rather prominent teen me also, who we've never worked with. She and my male protector are special friends. It is good to know she has someone. He was very angry at T on her account--he accused T of ignoring her and shuffling her aside whenever she tried to say something. I knew none of this. I was just kind of flabbergasted as I sat there and told T this stuff.

My goal in therapy is to heal, and some of that means ego state therapy, but mostly, we do other stuff. So we are not focused on the ego states or the idea of "integration", but rather issues.

My T doesn't use the word harmonize or integrate. He worked with me and my male as if we were a couple, just as he would any couple in his office for therapy. And with some of my young girls, he taught me how to go back in time, enter their world, and rescue them.

No, I wasn't hypnotized. We just did it. However, I got so freaked out by the male becoming so prominent in me, I felt overwhelmed by him and like we were sharing a brain at all times and he was starting to squish me into the corner. Finally, I told him rather harshly to leave me alone and go away. And he did. I felt very bad after that and wanted to be with him again, but he had gone away, or I couldn't reach him. I felt horrible about that! And at that time I started looking into ways to overtly access my ego states, if they were not apparent, and I read that hypnosis could be used. But I never did it.