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My T has told me from the beginning of therapy that it is okay if I get angry at him...and I have, a couple of times. I've never really yelled, or "blown up", but I've definitely made it clear that I was really, really mad.

It is always okay. T tells me "anger is an emotion, with information". When I feel angry, he wants me to get curious - what is the anger trying to tell me? I don't get angry much, but I did get angry after my last session (not at him), and after 16 months of therapy, I understood for the first time where it was coming from.

Keep working. You did SUCH a great thing by showing up for your next session, even though it might have felt uncomfortable. That was brave, and the right thing to do