welcome to pc billie69! this is a good site for info as well as support. don't know about your med they put you on..but there are sites as well as here that can give you more info on it. another suggestion is to use the home page of psychcentral to read more about bipolar. there are similarities and differences in all of us that are bipolar. i tend to be more on the depressed side and my mania is either an agitated state or what other people just feel normally. i was told that medication and therapy was the key for success dealing with the bipolar and for me that has worked really well. i spent many years trying to hide how depressed i felt and outwardly acted happy, etc. it took soo-o much mental energy to do that. thankfully now i am stabilized and do have episodes of depression or agitation but they are mangeable for the most part. the pdoc sometimes tweaks my doseage during those times. so hope you will find more answers-knowledge empowers us- even tho sometimes we feel we're on a roller coaster that we wish we could get off.