Mouse,
Yes, that's it. I always want an immediate answer to everything. I need to learn that it is not possible to always have an answer right now for everything. I agree that I need to work on feeling safer so I won't be so guarded. It's really hard for me.
Sitting,
You are probably right, it is t's job to be worrying about all that!
Hangingon,
I really hope it changes for us too. It's so awful to be tied up in knots all the time. Part of it is probably because I have GAD. The primary feature is ceaseless, unnecessary worry about everything and anything!
Sannah,
You nailed it on the head when you mentioned insecurity while growing up. I never felt prepared for "bombshells" when they occurred. Bad things seemed to suddenly befall me with no warning, and I didn't get help to deal with the situation or my feelings. Also, since I didn't get much direction and was left to do my own thing and figure out things for myself, I felt insecure alot and really did not know what to do. I was a worrywart for as far back as I can remember. So I guess I just try to control everything, so as to feel safe. You are right. I need to find some way of feeling more secure. The thing is, I don't feel capable of being able to handle bad things if they happen to me. I still dread those "bombshells" even as an adult. I am always uptight, afraid to relax for fear the other shoe will drop. It's hard to live this way.
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