Thanks so much for your reply....
I've done lots of cunsoling....lots...I read a lot....you can't even imagine how much I read daily to figure out....that's how I'm figuring it out that I do have issues....and I love to work on them....
That is true friendship is really important in a relationship....and that was missing from this relationship....I told him...the last day we've been together...I told him that if he was my friend he would have known me that I'm hungry and tired....he said I am your friend....I said no you are not...that's how he starts fighting with me....
I never made that level of friendship with a guy and then dating....I do have lots of guy friends that I love to hang out with them, and they are interested in me....but I'm not interested sexually or I don't feel that chimistry with them....
With this new guy, I felt the Chimistry and I felt I can make him my friend, but my possesivness and jealousy ruined everything....and at top of that, the trust....I couldn't have trust him....although, I didn't see anything from him....even I broke into his email, which is bad thing to do....and honestly, I didn't find anything rather than him being excited to be with me and telling his friends....it was embarrasing really knowing that I'm breaking into his email.....
well...what do you think? what should I do? I'm sure, he will contact me and wants to know if we can be friends....but I don't want just being friends....I want more than that....I do have enough friends really....I need a partner....I need friend for my life.....
what should I tell him? I'm so afraid to face it....I'm so afraid to talk to him....I'm afraid if he says, he just want to be friend....and he can't stand me....I'm afraid....I don't know even what I want? I just know that I don't like it when he constantly going to Salsa clubs and talking to girls...I don't feel secure in the relationship then....I dont' like it....