Hello therapy-twin. hehe

T and I have talked about these worries many many times. After 2 years I still have these worries a lot. Keep talking about these with T as often as they come up. It really helps me to do that.

Fear is anxiety and fear of the unknown is about the perfect definition of anxiety, to me. But we can't know what we don't know. That might sound simple or silly, but it can be relieving too. If we can't know it until we know it, then we are free to relax and wait for it.

One aspect of this is a pattern, not uncommon I know, of poised waiting for the other shoe to drop. I know this about me and have for a long time, but the beauty of therapy is that I see it clearer and I can carry that idea around with me a while and see all the places it fits in my life. In just one day I have seen it in many many places. So I am trying to adopt a philosophy I'm calling "Show me". "Show me that 'the other shoe' even exists!!". ha! Anyway we are just starting to explore this and I'm in such good mood recently I'm having fun with it.

"Trust the process" my T told me in the beginning. Mostly I can do that, although sometimes I need to come here and the wonderful PC community will remind me...