thanks horsecab for your reply....

I accept that I have fear of rejection....and I have developed this fear during high school....however, I do have friends who care about me....and I don't have problem initiation friendship or going to new places....my problem is happening when I'm in the actual relationship....I can't hold on to it....It looks like I'm constantly tring to scape out of it....As I love to be in a relationship, but I can't get relaxed and enjoy it....I'm tired of being single frankly....I found the guy who I enjoyed being with and then I blow my chance away....he really liked me....but I couldn't accept it....I rejected him so many times....and the finally he cut it lose!