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Old Mar 13, 2009, 07:02 PM
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Went to a T for the first time and was diagnosed with PTSD along with other things. I could search online and read articles but not sure if I will find my answers. I am curious if getting agitated very easily is part of the PTSD. I can be set off by the dogs sniffing me when I come home, or some old lady driving ever so slow. My agitation quickly turns into anger. I am the type of person who shoved all feelings in and could act as though nothing was bothering me. I also get very frustrated easely that also turns into anger. I am sure if I discussed it with the T I have had it a long time from childhood but a physical assault 6 months ago has set me off in a whole different direction with it. That is what has made me seek help. I was already told by the T after the first session I have a lot of anger to deal with but figured she was referring to my upbrining. I also found it interesting as well as angering that in occupational therapy they had me fill out an assessment for PTSD after I already realized I needed help. Which of course made me angry. I felt like it was none of their business. But then again it angered me that someone noticed I was having issues. So I am just curious how others get with their feelings. I am so use to not feeling and now I feel out of control with the frustration agitation and of course how angry I get with the smallest of things. I have gone through life making jokes about everything and now I seemed to have lost my ability to find humor in much if anything at all. Instead I find myself full ofanger to the point that it scares me. I feel like one little thing might put me over the edge and I will totally lose control over my anger. Of course I keep trying to control the anger which is adding to my depression because I am turningthese feelings in on myself. I am just wondering if others with PTSD have struggled with issues like I am right now. My main reason for posting is because right now I am so agitated and frustrated with the whole situation and trying to make sense of this crap! I appreciate anyones comments on how PTSD has effected them especially if they feel the way I do. I am trying to feel normal in an abnormal and stressful time in my life.
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