Thanks everyone for your support.

We did talk about the blow up when I went back. I was scared to go and she said that she wondered if I was going to show up. We talked a lot about what happened and I showed her what I had written about the event and I think that helped her understand what happened. We are still going to have to talk about it a lot but I feel better after talking to her about it.

Mouse, you are right. I was scared about what her reaction was going to be and that she was going to reject me.

Thanks again everyone. I think I just needed to know I'm not a freak.