How do you choose a Therapist. Which kind do you choose? I am in a blue funk depressed, and have high level of anxiety. I feel sick to my stomach at times and sometimes loose any signs of hunger. I do caregiving for my mother who is a very negative person. I am in between a rock and a hard place with her, I want to leave and work somewhere else so I dont have these feelings of wanting to end her life, everytime I pass a knife drawer I just have a urge to take one out and stab her I know it wouldnt be worth the time I would spend in jail. She doesnt understand that I am trying to save my life and in doing so I am trying to save her also. I have spent a whole week away from her to get myself back on track to see again on Monday. I am having anxiety about the trek back to her place to hear the same old stuff again and I dont know if I can take it. I cant sleep at night I have a whirring sound in my brain that keeps me awake and the only thing that puts me to sleep is a muscle relaxer. I dont want to do anything crazy so I keep my distance. I am looking for another job but its hard to find work so I have to keep her till I find something else. In the meantime I am going out of my mind. She depends on me solely and I cant deal with that either. She has no friends I mention she needs to go to the senior center our town but she says no. I cannot be her clinging vine. I need a life too. She doesnt understand that she has to go everywhere I go or she isnt happey. I am not happy that she has to be where I am at almost all the time. Its driving me crazy.