I just need to share some feelings I am having today and I know have been building all week. I don't know if it the areas we touched on during therapy or some issues I am dealing with a friend. It could be a combination. Plus I just got off the phone with my mother and I swear she had been drinking. That little voice inside said caution! Boy do I hate it when she acts like she has been drinking. When she gets this way she starts talking like my sister is just so wonderful and oh is so busy and the poor thing. Open your eyes that is her excuse for everything. She is no busier than the rest of us who work. I get so angry and then angry with myself because I get irritated and I am not the loving excepting daughter/sister I should be. I was already feeling down and this just made it worse! Why do I have to feel things so deeply? Why can't I be one of those who just lets it roll off their back. I am sad because a friends child if very ill and I think the fact that I left therapy this week in tears (once I got out the door) because we touched on some area in my past I haven't thought about in years it has left me feeling a bit raw and vulnerable. I want to feel good and strong so bad. I know this will pass it always does but I hate it for right now. I want to cry, but the repair man is suppose to arrive any moment and of course I don't want him to see me crying. I feel a little better just getting this out. Thanks for being there.