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Originally Posted by Shelle
The guilt may be in saving a sexual offender and feeling helpless like the girl who was murdered, the colleague make represent clinical reasoning but also a certain detachment that gets percieved at times when we work through a very traumatizing experience in raw emotions. The addiction could be the net.
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There is something paradoxical about all this. Just recently I was musing some place on the net--why is it that we place sexual abuse in a special category of abuse--and make the pedophile worse than other kinds of abuse perpetrators.
I've been in denial that the sexual abuse had any long lasting effects on me. I even stood up for a poster that others accused of being a pedophile. I always thought the other kinds of abuse I suffered had worse effects on me. (I still think that)
Yet, last week, in a body work session I had this flashback as clear as day of my uncle sticking his long skinny tobacco stained fingers in my pants. I bet it was the day after I was swearing that this experience 'didn't bother me all that much".