Thanks guys

pegasus--I have some coping mechs, but part of me just wants to throw them all out the window and go back to what i know.... i just dont know what to do with all these emotions hitting me at once. Im all over the place (at 26 i just had my first REAL break up and I dont know what to do---this has never happened to me) I dont even know what to write down. And Im in a mode where I dont want to write anything for T to read cuz she always whips out my writings to refer to and I hate that.

I am doing a good job at trying to keep everything in, which isnt exactly good, but i feel like im going to explode if i sit still for longer than 15 minutes. I have to keep moving, but is 11pm i have no where to move to or go.....

EM---thanks

Echoes---thanks

I feel like i have yet to have a steady schedule with T. She gets sick or has vacay or I cancel...

----ME---all over the place. I know T will have a field day with me. She gets to work through something with me that is currently happening and there is no way to get around it or avoid it.