im just staying off of the other meds out of sheer confusion....
after my last battle with psychotic mania, i decided i dint need them and they were damaging my body. i convinced myself i was being brainwashed by my medical group..... and i believe that the drugs helped me expand my mind to the point that it actually turned inside out....
sounds crazy, i know. truth is i am crazy. i try to get through each day though.
i spent a great deal of energy focusing and maintaining the socially acceptable image of myself.
and the klonopin is meant to help with panic, it helps with the whole thing according to my doc who says it is much like a mood stabilizer. the zyprexa was for some unimaginable psychosis... to keep me from becoming madly delusional to the point that i felt i was lost inside a host body and would separate from myself and shadows would walk and speak to me in a hiss. ativan is for situational anxiety.

unfortunately i am constantly paranoid and even when the bipolar symptoms have all ceased, the slew of symptoms that fit into schizophrenia become more prominent..... there are even studies... give a schizoaffective person lithium, and if they get better it is bipolar disorder... give a schizoaffective person antipsychotics and if they get better they are schizophrenic.
now, i havent tried lithium (out of fear) so i have a bit more lab research to do on my brain til i figger this out.