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Not only did I not make it to the clinic on Friday to get the shot, I didn't even make it out of bed.
I was really ELEVATED last week and Thursday, just CRASHED.
I am swinging UP again this AM.
I sooooooooo don't want to get this shot tomorrow.
I see my pdoc on Tuesday.
Should I just wait and talk to him about it? I'd really like to do that.
It feels like my self-destructive brain WANTS these shots, because of all the bad side-effects. So, my pro-Berries side says maybe I should not get these shots.
And now that everyone--my treaters, mom, and best friend/sister-- want me to get these shots I am starting to get suspicious of them.
AND also--why can't they just accept me med-free?????? Makes me feel like some sort of freak that needs to be sedated cuz she is a danger to others.
What do you all think?
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