I, too was afraid of Lithium. Now that I've been on it for 2 months, I am glad I put my fears aside long enough to give it a shot. I am also on Klonopin 1 mg/twice daily(for panic disorder) and Seroquel 100 mg/day (helps with cycling). My Lithium is more than likely getting titrated next week, since I've already had my first blood work-up, but I currently take 300 mg/3x's a day. (My pdoc said this is baseline for BP1's.)

My fear of Lithium came from the stigma - if I go on this, then I really AM crazy. I have told NO ONE outside my close family IRL that I am on it; it's an anxiety I can do without. I think I remember in the past you saying something about Lithium being brought up to you (could be mistaken??). All I can suggest is to do what I did; Google/Yahoo the Hell out of it. There is a lot of information about it out there, and it helped me overcome my fears of *the dreaded med* Lithium.

Since being on it, my mental clarity and stability has been slowly improving as well as my cycling. Hopefully Lithium can afford you this much needed balance. You know the saying *Don't knock it 'til you try it*. I know that's not much comfort after being on a myriad of different meds (as I have been in the past as well) but what can it hurt to try?

If I've offended you by anything I've said, my sincerest apologies. I just know I've had the same fears, and want you to know that you are not alone in feeling that way. Hang in there until you see your Doc...sending you good vibes.

Dolfin