Nightdream ,
Hon I realize this, But I just want to understand these cycles that are happening. And how to better handle them when they do. I am just trying to gain a better understanding of myself when this is going on. I know that this disorder is not who I am , but just a part of me. Kinda like having a sense of self. I also think that knowing this part of me will help me figure out what I am made of too. And further help my confidence. Dont know if I am making sense to all of you on this but its the best I can do right now in explaining it. Thanks for your hugs too!

Hugz!
Beth