you didnt offend me...
im actually a little jealous.
i wish i could overcome the fear and take it but unfortunately my problem so closely resembles the early stages of paranoid schizophrenia....i want to do it but i wont let myself.
im so glad its working for you though....
i do like the klonopin... it helped me get through today.
i have lithium on hand and the correct prescribing info for it along with lab slips to take in after a week if i decide to take it.
my docs give me a lot of freedom in my med choices cuz im very stubborn and fearful.
since im off the lamictal now, i had been researching lithium.....
i found something on the web that had been suggested by a member her a long time ago. its called lithium orotate.... its a natural form of lithium....
see my problem lies in my mind. i want to do it, but the negative thoughts prvent me from doing it.
and since i dont trust myself....... i cant make the decision.
and with my way with doctors and blatant med refusals, they leave my "pdoc" care in my own hands...
i mean, i can get ANYTHING! just gotta call in the request to the pharmacy and in 24-48 hours its there for me to pick up. and i have several lab slips ready so if i do take certain meds, i can take them myself to the lab, get the tests run and call an 800 number to get the results.

i think you guys are sorta lukier that you have the frame of mind to take doctors orders, and the doctors who will make the orders.

it is what it is though....
im trying... im moving toward it.
gonna see my doc in a week or so.

thanks for the support dolfin, i really mean that.