((Searching))

I have done all of the above in yours and EM's posts, including calling back when I first said I didn't need a return call. I think that Peaches had good insight into infancy needs being met or unmet . Those patterns become what we are accustomed to so in a way, we might just be repeating (unconsciously) those things which "feel right." (This can be even when we "know" they aren't right.) So many times what I know intellectually doesn't match what I feel. It's really hard work to sort out that knot.

I think your noticing is awesome. You are healing!